This is my first fall and holiday season where I haven't been working and I have to say it does have a different feel to it. I think I feel less in tune with the holidays since I'm not at work hearing about it from my students and other teachers. This was always the time of year that teachers get excited about all the holiday time off we would be getting. We would chat anxiously about what we would be doing for Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years and the kids would be talking about their exciting plans for the time off as well. Now I'm home with my girls and not really talking about it as much.
And that is probably why Thanksgiving snuck up on me so quickly this year! I can't believe it's this week already! I'm looking forward to spending this Thanksgiving here in town with my parents and grandparents (on my mom's side). We originally had plans to go a couple hours out of town to spend the day with Waylon's aunt and uncle but we realized we simply couldn't afford the gas we would spend to drive over there. We are on a super tight budget (and I'm not just saying that - I literally don't drive anywhere unless I HAVE to!) and that trip would have taken all our gas money for the week. In the end, it's going to work out well since Waylon has to be at work at 5 am Friday, which means leaving here by 4:15 am and will probably work until 8 or 9 that night, putting him back home by 10-ish or later. It's going to be a long day for him, but hopefully a very productive day so it's probably good that we won't spend Thursday driving for several hours with two loud children trapped in the car with us!
I'm feel like I'm finally starting to fall into a routine or way of living here at home with the two girls. I've struggled a lot with feeling like I had to get a certain amount of actual chores done each day for it to be a productive day. I'm over that now. I have been told by so many people to enjoy the time I have with them and that there will always be chores to do, so I'm going to do just that. I'm going to enjoy this time with my babies that one day will be gone and I won't be able to get back. I'll get to the dishes and laundry as I can and the rest (like dusting and washing curtains and all those non-essential chores) will just have to not get done right now. And I'm fine with that.
I have been cooking more although I'm still not doing very well with officially meal planning, which throws a wrench in grocery shopping when I'm not sure what to buy and makes it hard for me to save money when I'm buying random things and don't have a plan. This is something I DO need to work on because it's something that can actually save us money and help us tremendously right now.
I also have reached a point where I just can't sit back and not do something about my weight anymore. I was really motivated when I started WW but then I got off track one week and that was the end of it. Now I can't afford to renew the membership and it's hard for me to do without having that online assistance. I am newly motivated again though some I'm working out some doable plans for myself. Until my girls are older and can go to our rec center's child care, I'll have to accept the fact that I won't get to go to the gym to work out. Scheduling workout time around someone else's schedule to watch the kids is too stressful. I've downloaded some free workout videos from our "on demand" exercise channel and am going to start doing those workouts during the girl's nap time. I started today. It was an easy workout but it still got my heart rate pumping and made me breathless. It doesn't really take much these days for that...I'm also going to focus on portion control and just cutting back on my eating. I have horrible portion control and can eat very large amounts of food at once. My first goal is just to take what I would normally eat and cut it in half. That's still going to be a lot of food but will make a difference for me I believe. This is something I really want for myself and am tired of feeling unhappy about my body. This time I'm making it a matter of prayer also (funny how I never thought to do that before...ahem...).
So there is a quick little update on me cause I know you have been wondering how I personally was doing! *grin* Thanks for reading and have a wonderful Thanksgiving week!
P.S. I realize I should have written a "what I'm thankful for" post first, but that will come this week, hopefully, before Thursday or maybe ON Thursday!


